How can someone be expected to live with no hope? As hard as we try, we can't catch up. Every single day HURTS. I cry myself to sleep, and I hear my husband try to hide that he's crying when we talk on the phone. May God help us, and everyone like us.
I am a mom of three children, ages 1 month, 2, and 4. My husband and I moved to another city when I was a few months pregnant, he transferred with his job and I came here with a job lined up. When the owner of the place I was supposed to work found out I was pregnant (I thought he knew) he said he couldn't hire me. I spent several months trying to find a job but everyone said the same thing. My husband works 90 hours a week to support us and his three other children, but we are falling further and further behind. Every month we wonder if we are going to get to stay in our (rent) house because we don't know if we'll be able to pay rent. We got assistance last month with our electric bill, but now we don't qualify again for a year and the next one is going to be cut off this week. My son has outgrown all of his clothes (he is 2 but is up to a size 5 now because he is so big and tall) and my daughter is in school and she only has like three pairs of jeans and they don't really fit. My baby hasn't been able to go to the doctor for his well baby checks because he doesn't have insurance. We have checked his weight weekly and an old neighbor of mine is in his last year of med school, not to mention this is my third baby, so between us and him we check the baby regularly for the things that they would check for in his doctor visits (rest assured that if there was ANY sign of ANY problem, I would take him to the ER). I don't have a car, I am using one that belongs to someone else but it usually doesn't start and now the transmission is going out. It's barely drivable. Not only that but the three carseats don't fit properly in the backseat, it's too small. I'm thankful for even having a car, but it won't last much longer. I can't even trade it in or anything because I don't own it. On top of that, my ex decided to take me back to court for custody of my two oldest, even though he knows the judge won't change his orders. He actually told me it was just to make sure we didn't have any extra money, and he is hoping he will make us lose everything trying to pay for the attorney so I'll have to give the kids to him and he won't have to pay child support. He has never paid child support, he owes me $11,000 so far. I have gone to every child support agency in the state, they all tell me to hire an attorney, which I could never afford to do. My husband, however, has to pay child support for his children that he doesn't even get to see, as well as provide insurance for them, which he hasn't been able to do. If we don't figure something out soon the state will revoke his driver's license for losing his insurance they were supposed to be added to. And my attorney is getting sick of the promises that we will send money as soon as we can, so I'm worried I'll lose my kids just because he doesn't come to court because I couldn't pay him. My ex does drugs, so that would be the worst thing in the world. No child deserves that. Here, they are in a happy loving environment, and, Thank God, they are too young to realize what is going on financially so they are in the best place for them.
My husband and I are resposible people, we don't spend money on anything that isn't absolutely necessary, but he got hurt so many times at work and had to miss a day here or there that we just kept falling behind. He went to work with broken ribs, he broke his finger at work and kept right on working because he couldn't miss even an hour to go to the hospital, and he never stayed home when he was sick. But after the 4th time he got his ribs broken in a year, he had to switch jobs because he couldn't do it anymore. He couldn't afford to take a week off so they could heal enough for him to do his job (it required tons of heavy lifting, etc). We are not one of those families that just got in over their heads buying a house that they couldn't afford just to live in a fancy neighborhood, just regular, everyday people trying to stay alive. There are times when we don't eat so the kids have enough. I have been trying to get a job but my baby isn't old enough to go to daycare so we have to pay someone cash to watch him, we can't even get assistance with daycare fees for a few more weeks. And I've actually gone to a few interviews, but haven't gotten any of the jobs. Please pray for us, and if you can help me with ANYTHING please let me know. I don't want to beg anyone, but I am so close to taking my kids out to hold up a sign for change. I don't want to expose them to that, but I don't have anyone to watch them.
God, please let somebody help us.
And just in case you can help us with something, a doctor visit for the baby is $100, the electric bill is $200 (actually 4 but the cutoff part is 2), my children both wear a size 5, any donations of or towards a car would be paid back as soon as possible, but it would probably be a year from now, and a prayer is priceless.
Thank you for reading this.
